I didn’t finish. I didn’t “win” this year. Not by a long shot. I got to about 12,000 words and that was as good as I could do.
I can think of a number of reasons that I failed this year. I had an idea for a story that was already derivative – it was an adaptation of someone else’s setting. Not really fanfic, but derivative enough that I couldn’t send it off to publishers in the form it was taking.
It’s also possible that I’m simply not a novelist, not a long-form storyteller. I don’t doubt that I’m a storyteller, I just seem to have trouble with novel-length stories. When I won a few years ago, it was with a story that I thought was pretty cool. I put this huge amount of November work into it, but then when NaNo was done, I dropped it entirely. I didn’t have the motivation to go back and edit the story.
Is that I’m not a novel writer, or is it that I haven’t found the right novel to write? I don’t have any question about whether I am a writer – I write lots of things, not just this blog, and I do a pretty good job of it. I just wonder whether novels are my thing; will ever be my thing. I love reading them – there’s that at least.
Next year, I’ll try it again. We’ll see. Might just be a matter of a lot of attempts.
Big, big congratulations to everyone who won this year. See you all next year when I start again with page 1, word 1.